it's a yellow banana day!!!!

2009-06-30T14:12:00.001+08:00

http://jh-kit.livejournal.com/

hoped over to livejournal.
oh yeah!

2009-06-29T16:49:00.002+08:00

sot 2010?

2009-06-19T11:42:00.004+08:00

hehehe :)) so cute!!

my very first day of unemployment!!

had a really good rest. before i start working again, i wanna have some fun!

i really dont know if i should work with dayspring or not, cause the position offered was not what i wanted. but i have no regrets abt leaving the previous company. ya, good welfare, learnt a lot, but i dont see myself in the same position in 2 years.

attended the zone meeting ytd night, and man, it was good. i think im the youngest over there? at the young tender age of 20? felt really awkward for the first time in so long. which leaves me to ponder, if i should have requested to join the young adults in the first place. practically everyone was in office wear!

of course, there were people who were around my age, but they are either studying in uni or working. where i am, and what i am doing now, i just never expected it to be like this in the first place.

oh gosh... i miss school! okay, so im now like, whatever i do next, im gonna make sure i like what i do, i enjoy it, and i have a passion for it. i'd better be!

those were the days...

2009-06-11T20:51:00.019+08:00

from secondary school to adulthood. (i am still very young!)

woo!! these people made my life better.

when the days were long and the nights were even longer.

hahaha. miss them!

hahaha!! try looking for me!

sleeping beauty me!

yes, i am always the star :))

those were the days where MP was a major pain in the ass.

and juggling fpqap with internship was horrendous.

i miss school!!!

caffeine overdose.

2009-06-04T23:57:00.003+08:00

i would very much rather you save the money for something you like than spend it on a gift just for the sake of getting one.

doesnt it just defeat the purpose?

enough said.

TAN SIOK HOON & I, have just signed up for pilates!
commencing on the 21st of july, the weekly session spans a total of 12 weeks.
focusing on improving flexibility, strength and body awareness, it works the core muscles and spinal blah blah blah.

this is as much as i can take in and i think the above mentioned are accurate.

looooking forward to a more toned body in 4 months!!!

sounds good? what u waiting for? join us!

CAFFEINE OVERDOSE.

at this rate, i think i may need my 3 in 1 coffee tmr morning.

i really need to sleep. now.

2009-05-22T00:29:00.002+08:00

the reason im still up is cause of the coffee & tea i had for dinner!!!

hoho. i seriously hope that i wont file the cards in the wrong drawer tmr.

or im gonna be in big shit again.

yay. graduation was a blast.
the photo taking and dinner afterwards were even better.
been a long time since everyone met up and i think we all miss one another in some way or another.

and i think eye masks are really worth the money. =))

2009-05-20T15:33:00.002+08:00

feels great to be able to have some me-time.
such a luxury to dine in front of my laptop with my nongshim cup noodles in hand.

woo hoo!! tmr's grad ceremony gonna be awesome i bet.

ive just tendered my resignation and in a month's time, i aint gonna be a working adult.
just an unemployed graduate of tp.

haha...
maybe i will rest for a couple of weeks.
but im looking for jobs in the meantime.
full time or part time? no idea.
but definitely one that doesnt requires me to work on sat.

some ppl have got the brains, some the looks, and some the height.
damn... ive got really great looking hair though.

ive resolved to set aside some money for pilates lesson.
yay. im looking forward to the toned body im gonna achieve.
then im gonna fit into clothes better.
not saying im fat, i just dont wanna look like a clothed bamboo pole u know.

woots. my eyes need a rest.
back to my eye masks treatment!

the power of confession

2009-05-03T20:09:00.003+08:00

earlier in the day, i was really mad.
mad that i allowed myself to stay out so late and caught a fever in the end.
mad at myself for making the wrong decision and how things ended up like this.
mad that i was so weak at controlling my emotions.

but as i start to learn, once again, to accept certain things as they are, i cant really help but wonder if things would have been different if i had chosen the alternative.

the power of confession.

i am alert at work.
i am strong, physically, spiritually and emotionally.
i am good at what i do.
i will be successful in life.

i will speak to the mountains in my life and they will be cast into the sea.
i know my Goliaths but they will not have a control over me.
i will overcome the Goliaths in my life.

the joy of the LORD is my strength.

2009-04-22T16:28:00.002+08:00

was supposed to go cycling today, but it was scorching outside.. so i thought i'd stay at home and chill instead so my weak and frail body wont dehydrate again.

work was okay, and since we always work half days on weds, it's nice to come home and just chill in front of the computer and have ur instant noodles and hokkaido ice cream for company.

i had the privilege of applying urine bags and inserting medicine into the anus of infants and toddlers these past 3 weeks of probation at work. it was kinda unnerving at first, having to clean their you-know-where to collect their urine cause they are not toilet trained. and the first attempt at inserting the fever medicine into the anus was not exactly pleasant. the kid was crying the whole time i was tryingto get the pill in.

but i guess i'll be good with these hands-on stuff when i become a mom. hahaha. most of the kids who come have really rich parents. dressed in burberry and stuff... the indonesians come just to see the specialists. they are especially rich!!!

after a day at work, u just wanna come home and enjoy a nice family dinner. i used to go out every day and sometimes miss dinner with these peeps. but strangely, i feel really weird if i have to spend my dinners outside, even with my closest friends. u start to appreciate the time that u get to spend with ur family, and even their mere presence can be really comforting.

it's just weird for me to feel like that... really weird! never been the dependent sort... but i guess im still in the period of transition. our family bought a new 7 seater!! HAHA.

i promise myself that the next time i get to study, i will really give it my best shot. damn... you dont always have it easy you know. of course, u learn to be more responsible and make important decisions.

so i have decided. that im gonna further my studies in no less than 5 years. any longer and my the days of my youth will be over in the blink of an eye.

woo!!! i love being a student!

ya... and i was thinking if i marry early, i might be a stay at home mom!!! provided the man earns a lot!!! u just gotta extra devote time and effort to raise up kids who will not be starved for love when they grow up. working and raising a family at the same time is tiring!!!

dinner's waiting!!

2009-04-14T16:31:00.003+08:00

had a really good and long weekend cause of easter.
speaking of easter... the drama was great!

im blogging now cause im on mc today!!
woo!! the fever was totally gone ytd, but i think i can use today to make up for lost time.
so even as im sipping my soup, eating my mee hoon kuay, im waiting for the last two episodes of boys over flowers to load, logging onto facebook, doing online shopping and stuff.

ah.. the wonders of multi-tasking.

within the first month of my new job, ive been on mc for 4 days cause of fever.
haha... i really wonder what my colleagues think of me.

maybe i dont smile so much nowadays, but that doesnt mean im unfriendly.
hey.. like why was the chicken rice stall auntie staring at me???
i would have liked to smile at her, but i dont smile to strangers when im alone.
especially when im not wearing my glasses.
which is like half the time.
it leaves me insecure knowing that im smiling at someone i cant see clearly.
which was why it caused a misunderstanding with my colleagues at a bus stop on my way to work last fri.

oh well... i might get new contact lenses when my pay comes.

and i bought a new dress for the grad ceremony!!
im darn excited cause i think it's gonna be a blast!
im so looking forward to it and i really really hope the rest are coming too!
but im not really sure if the dress i bought is suitable for the occasion though.

ive decided to keep my hair at shoulder length.
haha... cause i think i look good with that kind of hair length.
i might get a new hair colour next month!!

i was watching a tv program on Rain on discovery channel in the morning.
i think it's really amazing that different personalities can be driven to succeed because of certain things that happened in their life.
this korean singer/actor has achieved so much in his twenties that people his age can only dream of.
he has come to where he is because he was driven and hardworking.

after watching this, i feel that anyone can succeed in life if he really has a good attitude and acts when the opportunity come.
u dont need to have God to achieve fame and wealth.

the bible says the rain of God falls on the righteous and unrighteous.
what is it like to be really rich and famous yet live without God is sth i see in the lives of so many celebrities and famous personalities.
but to be able to walk with Jesus in a time like this, is a choice many people have made, and one many have decided to live without.

what would it take for those who have made a conscious decision not to walk with Jesus to give Him a chance?
how much would it cost you to give it a try?

all these in exchange for a saviour who gave his all on that cross so that we may be reconciled to the Father.
and you ask what good does it do to you?

and i say unless u experience firsthand the unfailing love and acceptance lavished on you while you have made so many mistakes, caused much unhappiness and sometimes feel like you are not even worth as much at dog poo at all, you wouldnt know what it's like when Jesus tells you that ''yes, i have loved you with an everlasting love.''

''but he was wounded and crushed for our sins.
he was beaten that we might have peace.
and by his stripes we are healed.''

second thoughts

2009-04-08T17:45:00.002+08:00

had a fantastic day today. went out w e poly peeps after work.

i felt alive!

and while we were at recruit express, a company which i had sent my resume to called.

only after i had taken up this job offer!!

the boss of the company sounded friendly okay!

damn!

in my heart i was like thinking, is it my loss for saying yes in haste?

haiya... quite heart broken.

worse than breaking up with ur first love.

at least first love never lose anything.

but still..

im so looking forward to the grad ceremony on 21st may!!

the feeling of meeting ur poly mates again, it's gonna be like, how everyone has grown in 3 months!!!

all the emotions, yelling, shrieking and photo taking.

okay.. maybe i cant expect significant changes frm everyone, but it's like meeting everyone all over again!

who knows when we'll meet again after grad.

5 years down the road?

some would have been lawyers, doctors, professors... or even married!

i want to be one of those who get married first okay!

cause at the very least, if i cant get my ideal job, i can say im happily married alr!

okay.. enough rubbish.

i had absolutely no idea my neighbour came back from england like about ten mins ago.

she gave us chocolates!

not those u find in ntuc or cold storage...

haha. e finest! simply melt in ur mouth!

2009-04-07T13:24:00.002+08:00

i cant wait for the grad ceremony!!!

oh, month of may! come quickly!

2009-04-07T12:35:00.003+08:00

work at the hospital has been good so far.
i really hope i can recover fully by tmr so i can absorb more at work.
cause being on mc these couple of days has given me ample rest!

the environment is not bad, but i cant imagine myself working at the same place for 2 years.
of course, the faster i learn all the basic stuff, the sooner i get to help out at the cardiac department.

i still think studying is way better.
life is getting kinda mundane once u start work.
day in day out, it's the same thing.

therefore, i tell myself that once i have enough money to further my studies, i'll do it!
i can never settle for a diploma.

come to think of it, im really fortunate cause ive started working.
this may not be what i really want to do, neither does it suit my personality, because i am definitely not a meticulous person.
but i can look at it this way.
whatever that i am lacking in right now, this job can train me in terms of being meticulous and precise.

at the end of the day, i got to know what i want in life.

the bible says to never despise small beginnings.

2009-03-28T09:31:00.003+08:00

yeah!!! i just went for a jog at e buangkok green medical park. okay. i need to jog at least once during the weekends. just once... pilates on tue. need to strengthen my core muscles. okay. i really cant wait for it to start!

dad's probably gonna get a new car. 6 seater! it's gonna be blackish pearl i hope. it looks black in e day, but when night comes, it kinda starts to glow! it's a goodtime to get a new car now, cause e COE's gonna be decreased, and that's when car prices will start to go sky high.

and im gonna start work at gleneagles next wed. cant wait!

going to sentosa next mon. hahaha!

oh sandy beach and crashing waves, im coming!

2009-03-17T17:00:00.002+08:00

i got blisters on my feet! from those new heels i bought.

im a little hopeful cause im gonna send in resumes to some corporate companies that i feel are not bad. so, ... good news i hope.

i miss scv!!! haha.

2009-03-16T13:03:00.002+08:00

i went on board e flyer ytd!
okay la, so much for e hype. it wasnt as exciting.

but. i finally bought a pair of flats from charles & keith ytd!
made my day.

im heading to the cinema later!
guess what. watching watchman w kaixian later.

i think i gotta find a job really fast.
days of waking up so early in the morning to go on site, irregular working hours...
kinda sucks. haha. no fixed pay.
and u get allowance from ur mom.

nah...

2009-02-15T20:56:00.002+08:00

food service management is so dry!!!
i cant wait for the paper to be over.

help!!! im drying up!

2009-02-04T15:39:00.002+08:00

yay!!! mp's like finally over!!! yay yay yay!!! DOUBLE YAY!!! woo!!!

and i bought a pair of new reading glasses. damn ex!!! spent all my hongbao money!!!
better be good...

Forgiveness is not based on the magnitude of our sin, but the magnitude of the forgiver's love. No sin is too great for God's complete and unconditional love.

2009-01-21T21:39:00.002+08:00

fever. nausea. loss of appetite.
so i drowned myself in tap water.
hohoho!
never felt so hydrated in months..

2009-01-20T19:06:00.002+08:00

went shopping at PS and bought nth. who told me there were loads to buy over there?!
was busy stuffing myself with chocs while studying for e quiz this morn.
now im down w a really sore sore throat.
and e nose hasnt stopped running since i went to thread my brows in e noon.

im a complain queen.

recent outings kinda left me cash strapped.
like crap?? cause cny's coming and ive yet to get my accessories.
why is e nose still running??

im still complaining.

so.
i need to save more. 30 bucks per week.
exercise more. 30 mins run daily at my ban qiao park.
wake up earlier. 8pm daily if sch doesnt start early.
prepare for next week's interview. make up and formal wear.
get a dress!!!!!!

i am legend

2009-01-17T14:04:00.003+08:00

yay!! bought all my cny clothes online. saves time and money.
cant for them to arrive!

busy rushing pineapple tarts w my ma, my ah yi and my grandma.
boy.. they shared so much stuff tt i didnt know.
it was funny though.

fsm practical was a blast!
cause e blade was not inserted into e food processor, both siok n i were wondering why e prawn shells were not moving inside.
haha. and chef said e both of us were legends.

i cant believe i failed my napfa. hoho.
i didnt fail e run. it was e inclined pull up tt i failed!
so paiseh can.
im gonna start running again, cause i gained some weight in e past 2 months.
freaky...
tt tummy's gonna show if i dont do anything abt it!!!!!!

2009-01-13T22:25:00.002+08:00

i really cant wait to start counting money again.
like seriously... e feeling is so shiok.
even if it's just a few $10 notes in ur hands.
knowing tt u didnt earn them, but someone gave it to you.

haha. i wanna stay single for as long as possible!
then cny no need to give ang bao.

and i have yet to do cny shopping!!!!!!

oh crap.. this is so shitty.

money makes e world goes round.
money solves everything in e world.

but still, there is sth that money cant buy.
it cant be earned, and it comes free to all of us.

it is the blood of christ, shed on the cross, for each and everyone of us, that washes away every single one of our sins.

he paid the price, just to reconcile us back into the arms of our abba father...

2009-01-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

attended service with john bevere and caught sth in my spirit.

nothing you do can make God love you more or less, but you can control how pleased He is with you.

you may not be God's first choice for what He has called you to do, but you cannot change the fact that He has called you into this ministry.

if you will not do it, He will raise someone else who is willing to lay down his life.

kathryn kulhman was God's fourth choice.
john bevere was God's third choice.

if you are called to be a preacher, dont try to be an entrepreneur.
if you are called to be an entrepreneur, dont try to be a preacher.

what you do with e cross determines where you spend your eternity.
how you live ur life as a believer determines how you spend your eternity.

no matter how long you live your life here, divide it by infinity and you'll still get zero.

take my five loaves and two fishes.

2009-01-04T16:02:00.002+08:00

fsm practical has finally ended!!!

yay.

2008-12-28T16:17:00.013+08:00

and so... having to run 2.4km on e 2nd day of the new term is quite a spoiler.

on e other hand, if it's gonna be sunny, i dont mind running!

in e meantime, im still waiting for my f gathering pics.

oh.. let e sun shine so bright on tuesday!

2008-11-10T00:03:00.002+08:00

i saw CELLULITE on my thighs today.
not good not good.
im gonna blast them in the next few weeks.

so... im gg swimming tmr w little kit.
get a tan, then i probably wont look so anaemic.

then i gotta start looking for a dress cause a friend's wedding is coming up.

now is not a good time to get attached, seriously.
so many ppl are getting attached, and it seems like this is e season to get attached.

but i know it's not my time yet, so i'll wait.
when he comes, he comes.

the times & seasons are God's.

2008-10-27T14:52:00.006+08:00

''There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven.

A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.

A time to embrace and a time to turn away.

A time to search and a time to lose.

A time to keep and a time to throw away.

A time to tear and a time to mend.

A time to be quiet and a time to speak up.

A time to love and a time to hate.

A time for war and a time for peace. '' ecc 3

i'll learn to wait for His timing. =)

2008-10-18T09:57:00.005+08:00

HK cafe.

my beef & spring onion rice. yum!

my wacky brother...

the last benchwork before school starts.

i got my timetable, and it's e most relaxed semester in my last yr of poly life.

pity though,,, i wanna take product development instead of food service management.

i love food, but major proj changed my view on product development.

still...

i am so excited!!!

i really cant wait for school to start.

i really wanna go sentosa this coming fri.

pls... let's just make it happen la.

because i cant wait!!!!

2008-10-13T19:15:00.000+08:00

i just gotta start saving more!!!!!!!!

2008-10-10T16:13:00.004+08:00

oOo!!!!! this is so cool!!!

was playing with this till 1 in e morn.

slept for 3 hours & went to work!!!

im still very high now.

must be e coffee.

i'm all for molessss!!!

2008-10-01T23:51:00.003+08:00

i was admiring the moles on my arms today until i realised that...

another moles appeared on the back of my hand!!!

on an average fair skinned person, he has around 30-400 moles.
i counted... and i lost count.
most of us are born without moles. and they only appear later in age.

having more than 50 ordinary moles increases the risk of developing melanoma.
skin cancer!

if anyone has a mole on his or her hand, i would most probably notice it.
cause i have 3 really dark brown ones on my right arm, and they form the Orion.
how neat is that.

im not surprised i have so many moles, cause my mom is a moley person.

speaking of mom, she told my sis n i that we should be grateful.
cause she gave birth to such beautiful daughters.
oh well... it all depends on what u define as beautiful.

2008-09-28T19:14:00.002+08:00

5 weeks into the major project, and our supervisor told us that the company does not require the ingredients to be found on supermarket shelves.

oh no.. no no no no.
why wasnt everything stated clearly before we started on the project???
was it the negligence of our supervisor or the indecisiveness of the company??

5 weeks of hard work gone to waste.
gotta come up with a new formulation.

we're left with another 5 weeks.

im in a state of frenzy cause everything for the next 5 weeks have been planned.
and ive already given my word.

it feels as though our group is thrown into a situation that could have been prevented had the requirements been stated clearly before we started.

oh God... multiply my time.

2008-09-28T15:53:00.000+08:00

purity loves its Creator at any cost.

2008-09-23T00:55:00.001+08:00

love e new skin!!!!

2008-09-22T23:52:00.002+08:00

i feel funny.
this is the first time in months, i teared, after speaking to my leader.
it's more important that i know what he knows than for him to know what i know.
because God placed him over my life, he has a higher level of anointing, a higher level of authority.

i gotta learn to flow even if it doesnt seem right at this point of time.
not because i dont have a mind of my own, but cause i choose to respect and honour the people above me.

anointing flows when i submit and flow with my leader.

God, i believe that i am placed here for a reason.
a time, and a purpose for this season.
Father i pray, correct every wrong thinking.
set my feet in Ur ways.

all of my life, in every season, U are still God.
i have a reason to sing, a reason to worship.

God, U are good. U are good. U are good.

my week

2008-09-21T18:58:00.004+08:00

benchwork for major project.

sat's gotta be e most exciting day of e week man.

sunday afternoon

2008-09-21T12:35:00.003+08:00

just right before lunch...

me: wah!!! you cook cabbage??? makes me fart leh!!!
mom: so picky. everyone farts la.
me: but... but...

*silence*

2008-09-07T18:49:00.003+08:00

this is the man who never stopped fighting even in the face of fire.

amazing. to him, his faith is worth more than gold.

this is why he is where he is today.

2008-08-28T21:52:00.002+08:00

God... we were so close to bringing him back..
he left just like that.
what happened???
was it e lack of trust or e lack of commitment?

so close...
it just left me thinking. where the hell did we go wrong?

2008-08-17T19:48:00.002+08:00

went cycling at pulau ubin today. soaked up some sun!
got home.. and heard some stuff from my sis.

i just feel tt if a man cant bear to part w his money, he will never be able to love his wife to e max.
besides ur time, ur money is e most important thing.
if a man never learns to be generous, he will never be prosperous in his life.
the unwillingness to pay for the children's expenses simply irks me.
losing money in shares does not excuse him from paying e utility bills & such.
getting e wife to pay for e household expenses & e children's expenses shows a lack of maturity.
e lack of maturity reveals tt he has not learnt to be fully responsible for his own life.

what kind of a man is he if he were to allow his wife to pay for almost everything in e family?

building a family together means he shares e responsibilities & burdens together w his wife.
has he forgotten e vow he made at e altar??

oh dad... how could u???

2008-08-14T17:48:00.002+08:00

somewhere along the way, i lost the passion for the things i used to love doing.
serving, ministering... got tired and disappointed.
in the midst of all these, my heart was hardened and the love for God grew cold.
service that is not unto God is routine, done out of religious duty.
serving unto God... brings purpose and joy.

i fell, had to learn to pick myself up.
sometimes it felt like i was alone... having to go through difficulties at home as well.
all it took, was for someone to believe in me.
im glad someone believed in me.

and today, i asked God...
was it worth dying on the cross for me knowing that one day, i would screw up, grieve you,
and not be able to pick myself up again??? what happened to my first love??
im sorry i screwed up again. big time.

and to all that, He just said, '' I couldnt love you less.''

great is our God!!!

2008-08-12T01:01:00.002+08:00

slept like a log e moment i reached home from work. from 4 all e way to 9. good rest for my body i must say. didnt really have a day to myself after internship ended. when im busy w so many things, i feel an immediate void when i have even a bit of time to myself. and so i keep myself busy just so i wont have to feel e void.

then when i finally have time for myself on thurs, im thinking, what do i do???

sometimes we do get so busy that even taking out an hour to fellowship w God is difficult. yet, spending time in e presence of God is e only time where i dont have to think about anything else at all. well well well...

something else tt has been running thru my mind is savings. gotta have e discipline of saving. if i spend what i have, then i'll have nth to fall back on. i have many many things tt i cant wait to get my hands on, but they just gotta wait. it doesnt matter if i suffer a bit now, cause im looking at e long-term.

i feel tt last sat's cgm offering message was really good. a confirmation. savings, investments & playing on e property market. sth really different when ur cgl's a banker.

yeah!!! meeting w pastor tmr.. im expecting sth. sth...

im hungry!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-08T16:45:00.012+08:00

argh!!! im down w cold.
why didnt i fall sick when i was on four months of internship?
when i can finally enjoy myself for a short while, my body has to succumb to the virus.

today marks the official end of internship!! handed in the report, got home just in time to catch some rest.

this was what i produced last night just ten mins into e report.

my box of tissues. constant rubbing at my nose left it kinda swollen and red!!!

and this.. is the birthday boy. great sabo!!! love e wig & e fake boobies!!

we made him ask e security guard.. am i pretty???

my first meal back in TP. laksa!!! oOo!! i miss e food!

haagen daz ice cream after workshop in school. ooo... e brownie is awesome!

fish chips @ fisherman's wharf.. best tar tar sauce they have!

we decided to run around the stadium on a scorching wed morning..

but! e flesh is weak. haah!! and we managed 1 round!!!

wee!!! headed for ice cream afterwards.

afternoon @ east coast park. just me & e sun. love it!

im feeling hungry man.. all i had was 3 slices of pineapple the whole day... im so looking forward to dinner! and then im gonna watch mummy3 tmr!

finally a day of rest today... no cgm. so gonna paint my nails tonight =)

2008-07-26T00:55:00.002+08:00

whoa!!!! it's over it's over!!!
really blessed to receive so many things today.

been a long week. even as im typing, my eyes are drooping.

next mon: mediacorp health screening, fs debrief, chomp chomp!!!

haha. the guys saw qi yuwu, nat ho, pierre png, blah blah blah at e health screening.
wah!!! all e cute guys went le. i certainly hope there are some gg when i go down to mediacorp next week.

and so. wed n fri are not taken up next week. time to plan visitations!!!
so many things gg on in my life. sometimes i just need some time alone.
with some changes and adjustments taking effect from today, i know n know n know
that i need to depend on God more so than ever.

friendships tt i've built e past few months, e laughter n e tears... oh boy.

many times i pondered over why im placed in where i am now.
despite making it clear where i wanted to go, it didnt make any sense when i didnt get what i had expected.
e ppl, e environment, e situation... none of these made me feel comfortable.
if this had taken place a year ago, i would probably have broken down.

everything will work for good for those who love e LORD.
easier said than done. but. i am an overcomer. more than a conqueror.

abba father, u gave the word.
u made a promise.
if u will not move, then i am nothing.
but when u do, ur name will be exalted.
remind me again & again when all else fails.
ur kingdom is not built on human strength nor human knowledge.
abba, draw me closer into your presence.

2008-07-25T17:29:00.002+08:00

today. is e last day of attachment!!!

HOHOHO!!!

im so excited. major project is commencing next week, and then im gg back to office, but w a higher pay. haha! yayness.

so many thinggs to do. im gonna miss e ppl man... esp e part timers. oh well.. but then again, im gg back to work next week. so i'll see most of them again!

woohoO!!! im gonna go swimming tmr. n get my tan. wahaha.

2008-07-17T01:37:00.007+08:00

on e 14th of july:

we reached boon lay mrt at e break of dawn. yes. health screening.

on the 11th of july:

we crossed this after a mass workout w a certain organisation. well.. it was a good stretch.

and this!! all e way from europe. w chewing gum within e lollipop. woo~~~

sushi making session at ngee ann tower. seriously, all e ladies were very well dressed. well groomed even. someday...

and today, we had lunch at ayam penyet house opp shaw tower. e chilli is one of e spiciest.

and then we had this for dinner before cgm. hm.. not bad...

my ayam penyet. complete w lime juice. @ bedok food centre opp bedok camp. well, i do think this tastes better. but. e chilli from e previous one tastes way better... spicy. woolala!

well, im hungry. really hungry. tmr is salad day!!!

im gonna make... salad! well. i'll to get up at 6 to get e ingredients from e market.

oooo! so looking forward to it. hey, what if i cant wake up in time??

2008-07-17T01:23:00.008+08:00

secret recipe!!! personally, i like e marble cheese e most.

dang!! apple cheese slice anyone??

arts fest 2008.

ooh!!! haagen daz.

ooohhh!!!! up close. best thing to have after a hot day under e sun.

yup! we were slacking. but hey! u dont see many of these around anymore...

2008-07-17T01:04:00.007+08:00

balloons. wow. variety.

banana brownie crepe. heavenly...

this is a prawn cracker. from daiso. it's nostalgic, cause e taste reminds me of e big orange cracker we always had when we were young. they dont sell it anymore, do they?

my buns.

this is e best dessert ever made by my mum. e creamy part, is a bit like custard. so soft and wobbly it just breaks apart in your mouth. and e best part of this is e jelly-like caramel layer on top. sweet!

i agree it looks kinda eeky, but papaya does go well w strawberry yoghurt. mild sweetness of e papaya n e sour taste of e yoghurt. wah...

somebody made this for me. barely 2 days it set foot into my home, e container's almost empty. save for 1 sugar-coated cookie. yes, it's nice!!

2008-07-17T00:39:00.011+08:00

okay. first of all, this pic is long overdue. taken during e first few weeks of attachment. asked to run some errands for e company. in KILLER HEELS!!! it's a good thing we have strong legs.

this is where we always head to after work. yes. errands. cutest postbox ever. now they have it painted all white. eew.

this is what we do during lunch. trying out new food! oreo flavoured yoghurt. hm... not bad.

this is e famous soy bean tart opp peace centre. see how tender e inside of e tart is? i tell u, e crust is sweet n crunchy!!!

and then we headed to rochor beancurd nearby. e butterfly fritters... simply irresistable. not too oily, but it's still crisp!!!

dessert. hokkaido ice cream.

dinner @ waraku.

green apple sth?? it's e green apple version of choya.

hot stuff!!!

dinner at sakae.

yum yum yum!!!

2008-07-16T16:28:00.002+08:00

COUNTING DOWN: 7 DAYS TO E END OF SIP!!!

i guess i wont have that much of a variety when it comes to food when school starts.
:(((

after all, there are so many interesting food stalls here. and almost all are worth salivating over.

but i'll definitely miss e ppl. kinda tough at first, but e environment is so different from that of a school that i'll most prob need to adjust again.

and then there's no more combined cell meeting with s23 anymore.
definitely had a great time, esp e fellowship.
so many times when we laughed till our tummies hurt!!! haha...

it's time to renew the vision.
by e end of 2008, e33 must and will have growth.
embrace e vision, everything that has been placed into my life in this season.

let's lift e cg into prayers.
a cg w/o personal growth & revival, without prayers will stay stagnant.
we cant afford for that to happen again eh.
cant afford to shortchange God, to shortchange those who need e Lord.

it's time...

2008-06-19T22:08:00.002+08:00

it's been a good 2 mths plus since e start of attachment.
yeah! and i know that God has been good.
so tired every day, having to wake up at 6+ or even 4 or 5+ in e morning to go help out at sites.
at e end of the day, having accomplished much, im beat.
drained because my body is not used to it initially. blisters upon blisters cause of e heels.

emotionally stretching cause of e diff ppl n e new environment tt im in.
conflicts did arise, but we all got to learn to handle such issues in a responsible manner.
even with things not gg well at home, im grateful for His grace upon my life.
im thankful for His provision. my strength comes from e lord.

now that ive more or less settled down at work, im being put into a new environment in church.
should i give myself more time to adapt? or ask for a transfer?

things dont go well just cause i want them to.
i got to make things happen.

once again, i need to learn to obey.

2008-04-05T00:31:00.002+08:00

SIP starts next mon!!!
it's exciting cause i need to wear formal office wear. yes. new wardrobe.
6 days of e week i'll be wearing that.
posted to dayspring corporate wellness. it's like doing community nutrition all over again.
just that i'll be applying it this time round.

gonna be stretching for e next 4 months.
many changes.
it's gonna make or break me. yes. things are that serious.

tired, but not gonna give in.
discouraged, but not gonna let it get to me.
getting weary, but not gonna stop sowing.

i want to grow. i want to learn. i want to be a tree that bears fruit.
grace of God, favour of man upon my life.
i must breakthrough.

KEN LEE

2008-03-30T23:33:00.002+08:00

look look!!! haha. very entertaining. very long ago one. but it's so funny. good way to destress. HAHA.

funniest thing is e judge at 2:35. haha... enjoy ah her.

DESTRESS!

2008-03-25T15:40:00.002+08:00

i miss school.
i miss e mountain of homework that would wait for me when i get home.
i miss eating in school w e usual gang.
i miss running for classes cause we would talk till we forget the time.

what else?

i miss sitting in the lecture hall. playing pranks on e person sitting in front of me.
i miss squeezing into bus 23 and 15 after school.
i miss e bus uncle i usually see when i take bus 27 to school.
i miss being caught for eating in class.

what else?

i miss mdm kalpana. cause she always makes us laugh when wayne walks into the class.
i miss e western food in mensa.
i miss e western food in design.
i miss e laksa auntie in itas. cause auntie always forgets not to include e cockles.

and most of all.

i miss e toilet cleaning lady. she never fails to rush me if i stay in for too long.

how can i not miss school?!?!?!?!

2008-03-23T01:04:00.006+08:00

went to longhouse at thomson for dinner after a game of golf.
seriously, golf is boring.
haha... u stand there, more ur arms, swing, watch e ball fly.
hm, why am i doing sth i dont like?
i think counting e strands of hair on my forearm is more interesting.

on thursday, we were supposed to cycle to jalan kayu for roti prata.

what was supposed to be a half an hour journey took one hour.

i suggested taking a shortcut, which turned out to be a longcut cause i tried to geh kiang.

good lo, we ended looking like lobsters.

halfway through. it was drizzling and we were cycling along some lrt pathway. which happened to be isolated.

see? it's really isolated. we had insects for company though. which was totally disgusting.

cycled one hour to get to this place. e prata not as nice leh.

we ate. n ate. and e silence was disgustingly deafening. goodness.

guess e both of us were pretty tired?

then we cycled to punggol park just for e swing.

sat for fifteen minutes and realised e schoolgirls were not gonna give up e swings.

cycled back home n realised i got burnt.

i still look like a lobster today.

yucks. i wanted a sexy tan when i went swimming, but i got a lobster tan instead.

hai... it hurts when i scratch e mole on my forearm.

2008-03-16T18:42:00.003+08:00

I FEEL YOU TUGGING AT ME
A VOICE THAT WHISPERS INSIDE OF ME
COME AWAY, COME AWAY WITH ME

STIR THE FLAMES ALIVE
BREATHE LIFE INTO THESE BONES OF MINE
REKINDLE HOPE, MY SOUL REVIVED

SEND YOUR MIGHTY WIND
RESTORE THESE LIVES WITHIN

SPIRIT OF GOD FALL DOWN
FALL WITH YOUR FIRE AND POWER FROM HIGH
IGNITE IN ME AGAIN
OUR HEARTS LIVE IN YOUR NAME

SPIRIT OF GOD FALL DOWN
POUR AS YOUR RAIN REVIVE US NOW
RESTORE OUR LIVES
AND QUENCH THESE THIRSTY SOULS
LIVE IN US NOW

BREATHE ON US
BREATHE ON US
BREATHE ON US
BREATH OF GOD

WITH FIRE AND POWER
MOVE IN US TODAY

pastor talked about anointing this week.
a word in season.
for my life, for the church.
awesome. im walking in the will of God.

2008-03-12T11:11:00.002+08:00

results out today!!!!!!!!
i dont wanna know how much i got...
what if i sprain my back while playing golf later?
~!@#$%^&*
i dont wanna know!!!!
im not bringing my phone with me.
NO NO NO.

class chalet!!!

2008-03-08T00:26:00.013+08:00

night cycling at pasir ris park.

they were e ones who marinated e chicken wings. not bad la not bad~~

eeks. u see e sotong in ah poh's hands??? gross. i dont wanna be a housewife.

hahaha!!! typical expression from e both of them.

raining like siao. microwaved some of e wings in e end.

so much for bbq food.

val's gorgeous umbrella. n e super hot model. yes, im talking abt e one in green.

hahaha!!! smoke nice smell eh.

played twister. she farted.

and i almost fainted. haha. no joke.

this looks wrong. hahaha. twister lasted ten minutes.

returned e bikes in e rain!!! after tt, it hurt to sit down.

cheers!!!

im so hungry now. eeediot. nth for me to cook at home.

im gonna indulge in cheesecake tmr. UR treat.

2008-03-07T23:01:00.014+08:00

hahaha! so adorable. she cried when no one went to fetch her. he cried when i snatched his food years ago.

spot e difference?

haha. this woman was peeling oranges while we were studying for e exams. haha. kampong!

we looked like that a year ago. eee. i looked like a balding 17 year old.

at madam pey's. ha. 4th time they saw me wear tt top.

our lasagne. taste great. doesnt look appetizing though.

ha. tt headless woman is lee peck peck.

mango ice. not bad la~~~ got banana even better.

crab beehoon at changi village. not bad la~~

dim sum.

great dane. 6 foot tall.

dalmatian. 6 foot tall.

2008-02-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

skedaddled: to leave a place quickly because u do not want to be caught.
never heard it for 18 years of my colourful life. until i saw it in david's blog.

yikes!!! my sis said 2 terrorists escaped from our prison.
good thing i have no school for e next 1 month.
hm. e world is coming to an end faster than i thought. jk.

i hate beetles!!!
because im scared of them, i decided to not like them.
yikes.

it landed on my sis' foolscap.
she shouted for sos.
so i went and stood behind her and laugh.
what could i do man... both of us are afraid okay!
we looked ridiculous trying to get rid of that beetle.
in e end, we yanked tt piece of paper from e entire stack of notes and slammed e window shut.
reflex action. slamming e window was an accident.
yeah. maybe it fainted cause i slammed e window too hard.
i dunno.

it's e same species of beetle every night.
mating season or what.
live on 12th flr still got visitors every night.
love it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENDY LUUUUUUUUUU.

im gonna make u wear a dress when u become a bridesmaid.

wahaha! we are gonna make lasagna tmr!!! with lots of cheese.

toned arms and legs, here we come!!!

2008-02-26T11:56:00.002+08:00

exams R officially over!!!
im so happy.

now i can do whatever i want. yes!

went bugis. saw a lot of things i wanna buy! okay, maybe not a lot.
then met up w ah neo. bought a dress. it's very nice! but where am i gonna wear it to? wedding?
watched shark's tale again till i fell aslp.

and i hit e gym w huiyin today! feels good.
i feel good! ta da ta da ta!!
today is me-time.
gg out e whole of wed.
e girls r coming over on thurs. to bake!!! wahaha. gonna mess up e kitchen again.
fri's empty. maybe can catch leap years at e cinema...
or do some laps at e pool. get a tan!!! hohoho!!!

now is e time to look for a job!
earn $$$.
feels good to feel rich!!!

2008-02-23T07:53:00.001+08:00

sometimes, we find it hard to apologize because of our pride.
but if we have to, then say sorry like u mean it.
cause if u dont mean what u say, it's not gonna mean anything to e person u say it to.

2008-02-21T14:02:00.003+08:00

i cant slp too.
second day of tossing and turning in bed.
pls...no more third day.

im afraid to slp.
cause im now afraid of e dark.
esp when im alone in e room.
listening to music doesnt help anymore.
same tormenting thoughts for 2 weeks.
it's irritating cause i cant rest when my body is tired and my mind is so awake.

and i end up slping long hours in e morning to compensate for the slp loss.

something's wrong.
what on earth is wrong???

quek quek quek.
chickens & ducks.

fri come fri come fri come.
i cant wait!!!

2008-02-17T12:39:00.003+08:00

harlO everybody!

woke up w a runny n blocked nose n a sore throat this morning.

harlO everybody!!!

new blogskin new blogskin!

no more tissue boxes at home.

so i stuffed my nose with toilet paper.

now my toilet paper supply is running low.

great.

i love my big n bloated n red nose.

2008-02-15T15:58:00.004+08:00

im reading this book currently. actually, i only touched e first page.

project discussion. actually, only 3 members present. how come so many ppl invited into this conversation??

im gonna get this!!!!

and this!!! when i receive my pay later.

2008-02-15T15:40:00.004+08:00

2 years into poly and we're still together!

from mahjong sessions...

christmas eve slumber party...

to birthdays...

buffets...

after school...

to a simple dinner cum birthday celebration @ swensens.

2008-02-15T14:59:00.009+08:00

CNY's eve. yes. he is painting my nails. and he is sleeping w e lights on.

first day of new year. so bored that she was reading true singapore ghost stories. and this is my bro. cute eh.

wah, snatch my food. stare at u ah!

sweets!

cooking mamas!

look at e mahjong tiles! so small that we had to lie on our stomachs.

and we finally found a table for our tiles. they look like GUMMIES!!!

say cheese!!!

2008-02-15T14:46:00.005+08:00

this was what we did on e 6th of feb. getting busy with the art exhibition @ SM Motors.

from setting up e paintings ourselves,

to posing with them, fooling ard in e boardroom,

and finally to playing with food. e leftovers. so much rice!

haha. e food was e best part i think.

e painting was not supposed to be e backdrop, but e buffet guy set up e tables too close to e paintings, oh well...

2008-02-14T19:58:00.000+08:00

chiong chiong chiong!!!

fri come fri come fri come!!!

2008-02-12T00:23:00.000+08:00

today, i saw the other side of the mask that we so often hide to protect ourselves.
not from me, but someone i got to really know during these few weeks.

behind all that facade is someone who needs to be reassured constantly of his worth in this world.

beyond all that teasing and making fun of others, i saw someone who did it to make himself feel better.

maybe because he doesnt feel good abt himself, maybe because of inadequacy, maybe because he hasnt been showered w encouragement & assurance while growing up.

come to think of it, many ppl are like that. yeah, me too.

that's why we like to hide behind that mask.

but what if we are willing to put that away and just be who we are??

yeah. that'd be much better.

though we'd still be vulnerable to hurts blah blah blah.

hm. at least we dont tire ourselves every day trying to be someone we are not. just to be accepted.

which leads me to think. that my life would be better if i know what im living for.

when we know who we are, our sense of identity, our self-worth, then life wouldnt be that hard.

at least i know who i am. at least i know my value.

then what other ppl say wont affect me cause i know where im going and what i wanna do.

omg. im supposed to be doing my logbook. argh. i have a craving for mee sua now. i think i'll get some tmr.

2008-02-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

if im not talking in class, dont be surprised ppl!!!

i am gonna refrain from talking until i get my tooth fixed.

e cavity in my tooth is giving me a hard time.

i cant breathe w my mouth open w/o feeling e pain.

it's worse than having sensitive teeth.

my mum's gonna whack my tooth when she fixes it on tue.

argh.

2008-02-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

to do list:

pbpn a3 process cycle => complete
pbpn lab assignment
fpqap data logbook

CNY not to do list:

dont sit in front of e bak guas, pineapple tarts & kueh bulus
dont sit in front of e tv, which happens to be right behind the snack table
dont sit on the sofa, which happens to be just behind e snack table
dont go near e snack table. 1m distance.
dont eat bak guas like u have never eaten them b4. high in calories.
dont forget to jump rope 500 hundred times after u wake up & before u go to slp.
dont forget to do bippies. tones ur triceps.
dont forget to do crunches. rmb u still want that 6 packs.
dont forget to exfoliate. u dont wanna look dull when u're wearing such nice clothes.

last but not least. dont forget to pick up ur food if it drops onto e floor.
cause mummy will freak out if she sees ANTS!!!

great. now im gonna jump rope.
cause i just ate some oily stuff.

i want a pair of toned legs and arms!!!
e obliques & abdominals can wait.
cause they r not subjected to public scrutiny.

2008-02-01T13:22:00.000+08:00

27.1.08
today. i went to e toilet to study before lecture. and i got chased out by the toilet auntie.
she thought i fainted in there.

2008-01-23T19:31:00.000+08:00

candles. very beautiful.

2008-01-23T19:19:00.000+08:00

this is huiyin. haha. my baking kaki. actually, all we ever baked was cookies everytime she comes over. very camera shy.

this was e result when we didnt follow e recipe. cause there was no recipe. erm, they taste terrible according to my aunt n mum. ya, if e cookies are good, they would have been gone by now. like e past few times. i think they're alright though.

this is officially my wallpaper. yes. i need to be reminded.

and this is my screensaver. until i hit my books.

2008-01-23T18:17:00.001+08:00

NO SCHOOL TODAY!!! this is very very rare. more rare than the occurance of a blue moon.

so. i went to watch le grand chef ytd. freezing cold in e cinema. worst still, there's this irritating someone behind me SNORING LIKE THERE'S NO TMR!!! idiot. if u are happy spending 7 bucks to come in to e theater to slp while ur girlfriend is looking so embarrassed sitting beside you, GO TO THE TOILET TO SLP!!!!

i could have kicked his arse. very annoying.

reached home and saw a goliath edition of a cockroach in e balcony. because someone forgot to close e windows. too scared to kick his arse. so i dared not bath until the little man and his father reached home. ha. e little man was too short to spray bygone accurately at e roach. and so. we got his father. who happens to be by father as well.

oh well. that singaporean cockroach got away. i would have made sure it died a terrible death for scaring e hell out of me.

i hate insects.

ants, grasshoppers, COCKROACHES, bees, wasps, BEETLES, earwigs, termites, moths and etc.

u name it, i hate it. ha. no la, im scared of them actually.

2008-01-10T17:54:00.000+08:00

HAHA! i cant believe it.

someone actually got retrenched cause there wasnt enough work for her to do.

lol. retrenched at 18?! so funny. is that even the appropriate word to use.

haha..and that someone is my jie mei. lol. whatever.

anyways.

been thinking of letting go of some commitments so that i can focus on what i really want to do.

really bothering me. cause i feel that ive been stagnant for quite some time.

i want to something that im really good at. something that i have e passion for.

which is??? hahaha.

hai..really need to do something. i'll be 19 this yr. at least do sth with my life.

a change of environment would be good.

maybe it's time. i dont know yet.

so.

i went bugis ytd.

and bought a lot of stuff!

2 tops; pair of shoes(it's got e old sch feel!); 3 watches; rose ring and eh hem, some straps.

spent a lot. wanted to look for birks n havaianas intially.

oh well...gotta earn a lot of $ if i wanna buy so much.

signed up for OSIP. yes. i really wanna go.

cause. a change of environment is good. hehe.

and it will be good for me.

preferably thailand. a pity that e company in philippines wants only guys.

hai...i may be not so feminine sometimes, but im not a male of e homo sapien species.

oh well.

going overseas for attachment is good exposure. if u've got e $, why not.

cant really see much over here.

at least i'll learn to be more independent overseas. and not take certain things for granted.

if i go, i'll be leaving my piano over here. oh, my baobei! my bed. my blanket. it smells of me=)

what else...my books.

i want to get a job that allows me to travel across e world. yeah baby! tt wld be cool.

sorry. posts these few days are boring.

haven been taking any pictures.

2008-01-08T10:31:00.000+08:00

aiya!!!! went home ytd n my banker told me that we're moving house in 3 years. hiak hiak. hm, maybe in 1 or 2 years i'll have to move back to my own room cause my bro is not getting any young. he cant possibly share a room with my parents right. oh well..all HDB have 3 rooms. even if it's an exec apartment. haha...i'll only get my own room if i live in landed property. hai...

anyways. signed up for OSIP. ha! heard from mr tan that results is not one of the priorities. yay!!! i wanna go thailand!!!

today, i saw someone cry in e com lab. haha...i understand how u feel. looking at u cry makes me wanna cry too. lol. dry ur tears boy!!!

2008-01-06T20:02:00.000+08:00

blogger is lagging. omg. took me so long to get here.

im finally updating here. not cause i want to. but there's really no one i can think of at e mo to express how i feel. haha...so i logged on.

went f chalet ytd. arrived at ten plus. missed out on e food. hai...but most importantly, those who couldnt stay. fellowship was awesome!!! quality time spent. hm, though not with everyone. 2 years after grad. almost everyone remains e same in some way or another. same in e way we behave in front of one another. haha...did e guys even mature in e 2 years that they spent in tertiary ed??? O-M-G. no pics w me though.

hm, im not so pissed anymore. but what i want to say is, ''DO WE REALLY HAVE TO MOVE TO A 4 RM FLAT????!!!''

im kinda angry.

cause first of all, i do not want to share my room with anyone. my room is e only place in e entire house where i can have my privacy. wo de lao ba!!! i need and want privacy. not that sharing e room w my sis isnt good. she's hell lots of fun to hang out with, but, i guess she values her privacy too.

second. i have so much stuff of my own. many i really treasure. i dont just want to leave them anywhere else in e house other than my room!!! i still have books and notes and some personal stuff residing in cupboards and shelves in other parts of e house. and im not comfortable with it at all.

third. my own room means i can put my stuff anywhere i want. i dont need anyone to come in and help me pack my stuff. or even volunteer to wipe my tables cause im allergic to dust. yes yes. i understand ur good intentions. and i know u love me to do that for me. but still, i can find whatever i want from my table of what i would call an organised mess, thank you. besides, my sis is more disorganised than me. our room would be in a big mess if we really have to sleep in e same room again.

fourth. a whole lot of other reasons which i cant rmb at e mo. cause my mind is running too fast and ive yet to slow it down. im 19 this yr and my sis will be 16 next month. yes. we are both teenagers. okay, maybe im leaving teenagehood soon, but i think im still one. we want to do what we like in e privacy of our own room. free from e public's eye. which in this case consists of my lao ba & lao ma(my banker), and my sexy little bro. he's so cute and rather saturated w fats on e outside that he makes a bloody good bolster. better than e real one.

oh well. i guess that's what i can rmb for now. point is, dont settle for sth lesser cause u cant find what suits u. yes. a 4 rm flat doesnt suit my family of 5, i would reiterate again. yes. i would go talk to e banker & e banker's husband when im not in such a lousy mood.

2007-12-23T18:13:00.000+08:00

am i disappointed? yes.
am i upset? you bet.
am i angry? definitely.

but im not gonna be led by what people say, what people do, what i hear, or what i see.
because i choose not to be led by circumstances.

i dont want to follow blindly. neither do i wish to compromise just because the majority is doing so.

today i make the decision, not to be led by by my circumstances.
i refuse to be discouraged.

this is my conviction.

swim team!!!!

2007-12-13T21:37:00.001+08:00

quah ting wen!!! oOo~~this pic is so beautifullll.

look!!! 4 golds. broke her record i think. haha...powerful strokes. check out her butterfly.

4x200m freestyle relay men's team. gold as well. that's marcus cheah at e back. hiak hiak.

woots! majority are rookies. hiak hiak.

gotta go study. last paper tmr. and then it's PARTY! yeah babeh!

shoes!!

2007-12-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

this is what i will buy at e very start of next year. look at e colour! isnt it gorgeous?!! florida-cherry red birks!! bright, loud, eye-catching. haha...i love it! $80=)

diamond-gold birks! $378. i wonder why it costs so much. real diamond on e buckle? nah...

this is e madrid-tangerine patent. im in love w the patent edition! glossy finish!! oh my!!! a totally different look from e next one!

o-m-g!!! u see how glossy e front is?? madrid-raspberry patent birks! $67. haha...hot hot hot.

look at this!! ibiza-ice birks! lovely! $71=)

hm. after much contemplation, ive decided, to buy all of em! haha...in my dreams. i'll get e cherry red florida n red tangerine patent madrid. $$ in $$ in!!

2007-12-12T23:33:00.000+08:00

communication breakdown. it's been bugging me for a long time.
times when i wanna speak e truth, but am afraid to do so.
times when i wanted to express myself freely in your presence, but couldnt do so.
im getting weary. i wanna cry. break me...

the LORD is my shepherd . i shall not be in want.
he makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul. he guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

you prepare a table before me, in the presence of my enemies. you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and i will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

God of my forever.

2007-12-11T18:51:00.000+08:00

I AM GONNA wATCH GOLDEN COMPASS THIS THURS!!!

the reason y the double u is not in caps is because e DOUBLE U on my keyboard is spoilt!
so everytime i use this com, i'll just substitute e troublesome DOUBLE U w a $.
a $ sign because im thinking abt money now.

NO $ NO TALK.

talk is cheap. that's random.

gonna get:
a ne$ haircut
a ne$ hair colour
a ne$ pair of $hite berms
a ne$ pair of pumps
a ne$ pair of skinnies(ive yet to decide on e colour)
a ne$ pair of glasses
a ne$ top
ne$ contacts
ne$ notebook
$HAT ELSE...?

see ho$ many $ appeared already??
so you see.

NO MONEY NO TALK.

ho$ can i afford not to earn extra $hen i need so many stuff?

ho$ can i afford not to progress $hen e society is progressing so quickly?

and friend, you tell me you are happy e $ay you are no$. no job. no money. slack till you go NS in april.

resistant to change. $ell, you can afford to be $hen u're not living in this city.
change is e only constant thing. if you dont change, stop sucking up the air that $e're breathing.

2007-12-11T15:33:00.000+08:00

found this when i went through my photos. nice!

HARVEST.

lives changed. the harvest is coming. are we ready for it?

2007-12-03T09:44:00.000+08:00

argh.

fell down on my way to school. now my big toe is bleeding. e whole slab of skin came off.
haha...worst thing is, handphone kenna scratched. oOo~~~heartache. good thing is, no one saw my face when i fell, only my butt=) they cant recognise me~~ i might die of embarrassment if someone just come up to me and tell me he saw me fall.

csas only got 1 article. supposed to have 2!!! EEKS. im in deep soup.

stand chart run ytd. haha..saw a whole lot of cute guys running. hm...best part was, 20% discount off adidas items. hiak hiak hiak!!! but my sister wants it la...take lo. haha...im not so into sportswear anymore.

went for korean bbq after that. SHILO-something...ha. food not bad la. got big and succulent tiger prawns, squid, beef, chicken, all marinated n juicy. hah! still got salmon, kimchi w tofu, kimchi rice, rice in stone bowl, blah blah blah. breaded prawns. yummy babeh!!! sweet potato roll. ate until i couldnt talk. hai...im still dreaming abt e food.

weets! got an increase in my allowance this week. cant believe it. know why? cause it's unbelievable!! aiya, i'll only be getting my havaianas next year. levis jeans must wait until christmas period then got sale. ha...still got what? got a lot of stuff to buy.

ala...later still got golf. arms are aching. after golf session, my entire body will be aching. great eh. doesnt matter. so long as i get toned arms and a great tan! ha. whatever.

christmas is coming!!! prepare prepare prepare..

destiny

2007-11-18T17:20:00.000+08:00

im thinking about my future.
since i-dunno-when, ive been thinking.

im already 18. what do i wanna do with my life?
get a degree, then get some decent job after i graduate?
have some kids and start a football team after that?

nah...life is too short to just do all these things.
my life is more than that.

im not gonna be satisfied doing just the things people would normally do.
normal people do normal things.
but im not just an ordinary person.
i wont be satisfied doing ordinary things.
why settle for second best when u can go for the best?
why go for mediocre when u can go for the best?

i have the power to get wealth.
i have the power to make an impact.

i can make a difference.
but how much?

the strength and the ability do not come from me, but God.
my future is in His hands, and i want to know my destiny.

i am going to be a millionaire before 30.
why wait till u're in ur 40s and 50s to earn big bucks?
it will be too late. half ur life is gone.

e richer you are when u're younger, e more things u can do.
not just $ to satisfy ur needs and wants, but $ can be used to build schools and orphanages.
$ is a great tool.

i need to consecrate myself.
because i want to start doing the impossible when im young.
carry the anointing w me wherever i go.

would you be satisfied with leading a normal life?
when you know that the power to get wealth is in your hands; when you know that you can go far in life; when you know that you can influence ppl outside your circle of friends, YOU WOULDNT.

2007-11-17T03:17:00.001+08:00

oOoO~~~
running with ur fire!!!

trying to uploads some pics.
but..sth's wrong i guess.
heck. no picture=kinda boring

e harvest is on its way.
takes time, but it's gonna happen.

i dont wanna run alone.
i dont wanna walk alone.
i wanna walk and run with you.

2007-11-17T03:11:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!
im so excited!

cause...i have rekindled my love!
for swimming=)

went to do laps on wed. woots!!! e feel of e water on my skin.
and e feel of chlorine on my hair later on =(

i wanna get my tan back!

so. if i ever take e lifesaving course now, it'll be a class full of guys.
my sis n i will be e only girls.

tsk...sian can. how to swim with guys around.
hehe...i think i will be distracted.

$ $ $

2007-11-14T00:46:00.000+08:00

one word. TIRED.
haha...slept at 2, woke up at 7, reached home at 10.
haven got a decent beauty sleep for e past few days.
i fear for my eye bags. getting darker!

got a new pencil box. love it!
wanted to buy notebooks as well.
those they sell at artbox at amk hub.
very pretty. but well, e price is a bit steep.
almost bought one.

was reminded of something today.
something that i was reminded of a few weeks ago.

if i am not faithful in managing my finances, then i wont be entrusted with things of greater importance in e future.
i cant spend without thinking twice before i spend.
i still think about my purchase even after ive paid.
cause i wanna double confirm that what ive spent is worth e $.

poverty arises from mismanagement.
if we take all e $ in e world and divide it by e world's population, e ans is $1 million.

think twice before u spend!
no amount of money in e world would be enough if we spend like nobody's business.

2007-11-12T12:19:00.000+08:00

what to to?! lecture cancelled at e last minute. come to school only for 1 hour sia!

and it's raining!!!!

everything is a mess. too busy forgot to pack my stuff. everything is a mess. this week got so many events!!! O-M-G! O-M-G!

LIFE SO SO EASIER IF WE DONT GO AND COMPLICATE THINGS.
THINGS ARE COMPLICATED ENOUGH AH!

went swimming, skin start to peel. haha...children who dont wear their swim caps properly look like roosters!

and mummy came back from macau ytd.

and she bought heels!!! i finally see e reason to be more feminine. HEELS! but i'll probably have a hard time walking in them. hm, women are hard to understand. endure e pain just to look good. but i look damn hot in heels!!! haha...

mummy bought belts, and necklaces and pirated vcds. vcds for only 2 bucks! good bargain!!! where to get? drive to msia also dont have. go to macau!

didnt know that bossini and giordano are based in HK. and all along i thought it was a s'pore brand. and e clothes there are much more class! cheap some more. hah...everything also cheap cheap cheap. i sound like cheapo. and mummy also bought carlo rino bag from macau airport. she say got sale then buy. haha...

wah! daniel just tapped me on e shoulder. i thought who sia. SPY!!! STALKER!!!

oh no!!! forgot that i gotta meet my sista at POPular. haha...raining some more.

oei daniel! im not ur maid!!! ask me nicely to help u draw best fit line then i help u draw huh? haha...no money no talk!!!!!

hey! i sound like money face.

BOON BOON!!!! where are you???

2007-11-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

hey!!!!

im so excited!!!

cause...my mum just gave me 60 bucks to buy clothes!!! hm, it's not enough to buy levis or mango jeans, but im so happy can! better than nothing.

my parents are not rich, but they give e best that they think they can. even though they may fail to understand what we need and want sometimes, but they always leave e best for us. especially my mum.

ever since building fund started, ive been blessed with so much more things. it's not that God didnt provide for me before a&b, but it's so much more evident that he's pouring his blessings into my life!!!

open heaven that is!

open doors into e marketplace, greater financial prosperity, higher level of anointing, more lives being impacted.

i dont believe that when i give to e house of God, i will not receive.
i dont believe that when i put his kingdom first, my needs will not be met.
i dont believe that when i tithe faithfully, i will not be blessed.
i dont believe that when i sow a seed into someone's life, i will not see the fruits. might take a long time, but at least a seed is constantly sown into the ground.
QUALITY SEED, GOOD GROUND , GOOD FRUIT.
i dont believe that when i ask for something in his will, he will not give.

because i have seen the power, and the glory, when faith is being released, hearts are open to receive, and lives get turned around totally.

i want an insatiable thirst for you!!! yes you!!! my abba father.

MY LOVES!

2007-11-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

i love my hair.
i love my ears.
i love my eyes.

i love my height.
i love my build.
i love my legs.
i love my barely-there tan.

i love my watches.
i love my earrings.
i love my grey skinny jeans.
i love my yellow hood.

i love cherry red.
i love magenta.
i love lemon yellow.
i love violet.
i love gold.

i love talking.
i love crapping.
i love swimming.
i love to look at myself in e mirror.

i love myself.

i love people.
i love crowds.
i love music.
i love language.

but above all, I LOVE MY ABBA FATHER!

2007-11-06T00:18:00.000+08:00

advanced food science-proposal

community nutrition-gantt chart n literature reviews

pbpn(what does it stand for anyways?)-tutorial assignment. holy cow! it's due tmr

communication skills-journal search

food processing and quality assurance 2-research and more research

one big mountain of homeowork. piling up. waiting for me to touch. mountain of gold i run first... who likes homework? not me. who likes to do research? not me. who likes to talk? that's me alright. who likes to eat? definitely me!

2007-11-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

this is so fun!!!!

school is tiring.
work is boring.
why cant we just cook and eat?!

kit wei, u better stop complaining and finish your assignments. people work first then play, u play first then work. no wonder u're always saying not enough time.

alla la la...finish a bowl of maggie mee already still want more. u're not a pig u know. eat and eat and eat.

hungry cannot eat meh???

eat and eat and eat. better dun take so much oily food. as if u verbal diarrhoea not enough.

one more thing ah...stop thinking about your pimple already. if it's there it's there. looking at it wont change anything.

okay okay!!! u win u win...

i love hairy guys!!!

2007-11-01T17:36:00.000+08:00

man... i cant find my post on me wearing a skirt. cause i saved it under drafts and now i cant find e drafts section. hai...i was just thinking about daniel. haha!!!

this was what i got when i asked for a picture. oei! u camera shy is it?? actually, e focal point was hairy legs. hm, can u guess whose sexy legs these belong too??? lol.

met up with terence yesterday. and i realised he had so little hair on his legs. nice=)

haha!!! i secretly snapped this during CommNu tutorial. flash some more!!! but mrs Fou didnt notice. tut was draggy la...so i took this. JUST LOOK AT E GENEROUS COLLECTION OF HAIR ON HIM!!! him is daniel. i got his permission to take this okay... haha.. some straight some curly.

heard from terence that it's cause guys w more hair have more testosterone. okay. it means i have a lot too. cause i have a moustache. SEXAY!

and this is daniel's sidekick, david. damn good w e drums. haha...was interviewing him on e type of girl he likes. w xinni. as e camerawoman. haha...damn funny can. i asked if he liked girls w visible nose hair, body odour, hairy arms, yadda yadda. his answer was...i forgot. haha...but i rmb he said okay la for one of these. uh huh uh huh!

this is a snapshot of them celebrating linn's birthday. fish n co. dough in her hands. damn...i miss them.

hm, i was just wondering...if i were to go out w a guy who is more of an introvert, then i'd be talking all e time. people like...david?? im just giving an example of someone who is more of an introvert. lol. haha...dont say im not a girl.

but if i were to go out w a guy who talks as much as i do, wouldnt we be making a lot of noise? and irritating e hell out of ppl w our laughter and da da da. haha...at least i wont be tired trying to carry a decent conversation.

so i figured, it's best that we know when to talk and when not to.

yeah!!!! finally deepavali is coming. i wanna go priya's house for indian food!!!

hopefully, my stomach gets better. cause im having some prob w digestion. farting machine.

could be cause of e mac ice cream i ate ytd.

i miss junk food!

btw, i dont have anything against guys who have a more generous collection of maoz. just that, a bit of maoz is nicer than a lot of maoz. aiya, mao or no mao still guy what.

2007-10-31T17:27:00.001+08:00

haha...this is my 10 year old bro. fat and adorable. notice i dont use e word but. haha...he's got potential for a 6 pack. BUT right now, he's got a belly. he used to be skinny. which is good i guess, until we stopped swimming lessons and he simply expanded. haha...but. he so damn cute. moobs, which are what we( my sis n i ) call man boobs, look so adorable on him.

haha...this pic was e best i could get when i was teaching him maths during e hols. cause he refused to get shot. by me. ha. he's got such nice skin. which makes me wonder what my mother ate when she was pregnant with me. he also has fleshy buttocks to go with his belly. haha...i sound bad. but when he refused to wear undies in e past, we would pull his pants down when he was standing in e car. lol. and expose his cute cute buttocks.

haha...but because he didnt get used to indecent exposure, he finally decided to put on some undies. nah, that's not true. sth else happened that actually convicted him to weat undies=)

i was looking thru my old photos and i found some pics..

okay. this is how i look like now. with my super hot hair. haha...with zhen. ex colleague at fish&co. she's pretty. im prettier. lol.

this was how i looked 5 years ago. eew. mop hair. hair so straight that it looks like a mop. sure it'll make a good one. eeek! i notice that my nose is a diff colour as my face. haha...i dont rmb having any pigmentation problem.

haha.....this is how my sis looks like now. haha...she looks so CONSTIPATED! im laughing hard as i type. goodness....ha. i already got her permission to post this on my blog.

that was how she looked like 5 years ago. spasstic can. now she's got KILLER THIGHS. haha...and mine is rather flabby. sexy nevertheless.

i decided to try on some eyeliner and mascara. haha..i look damn hot can. lol. thick skinned. but im not ashamed to admit im hot! lol.

hm. was asking wanhua when she's gonna wear a dress to school. and she threw e qn back at me instead.

seriously, i have no idea. maybe when i finally decide to be feminine?

haha...but when i do, I WANT TO KNOCK DANIEL OFF HIS FEET!

that's for calling me brother. and laughing when i wore a skirt to school. haha...

he's not e first guy to call me brother. hm, i doubt he'll be e last. at least for now. haha...but im totally fine with it.

Joy of e LORD is My Strength!

2007-10-28T10:47:00.000+08:00

emotionally and physically stretched.

some people just drain your strength whenever you're with them. u feel like they will just suck everything u have. it's simply tiring to even sit beside them and hear them talk.

not everyone is e same i know, but things dont have to be this extreme.

first thing i wonder when i woke up today is, how do i go on from here?

i dont want to go back to who i used to be. that is e old me. i am a new creation in christ jesus. i dont want to lay the foundations again and again.

life still goes on. i will have to move on. hey, im not doing this to prove anything to anyone, but because i have already made the decision not to live for myself, but e one who made me.

i wont turn back.
i wont even look back.

THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH!

2007-10-25T16:26:00.000+08:00

hm, i was thinking about persis today, either that or i was dreaming about her, when i saw her on e way home. we talked a bit, and agreed to go out together.

it's been a year and a half since i last saw my sec sch classmates. haha...i wonder how they're doing. i mean, ive met up and went out with many of them, but im talking about those whom i thought was weird when i was in sec sch. haha...

i remember i would always ka jiao eveline. haha...and calesta would do it too. there! you see her with e shades? and that's me with my not-so-pearly white teeth. hehe...it's funny, thinking back.

cause we would always giggle at some weirdo, or boy-watch and giggle again. hm, we're still e same. cause we still love guys! just that we're not so gigglish anymore. but. IF BOY WATCHING IS A MODULE IN SCHOOL, WE WOULD DEFINITELY EXCEL IN IT. why? cause we're girls.

haha...some things will still remain e same.

2007-10-25T15:57:00.000+08:00

seriously, ever since school started, i didnt get my 11 hours of beauty sleep.

aiya...i think i can forget about it. cause e workload is coming!!!!

eee...i dont like FPQAP. 100% problem based learning. maybe im just too used to being spoonfed by e lecturers. i've yet to take a pic of madam kalpana. eh eh!!! she's one cool lecturer. e second teacher to interest me in a subject for e whole 18 years of my jumbu life.

haha...dont ask. cause i dont know what jumbu is either. it just sounds kuku. so i used it.

I CANT WAIT TO GET MY NEW PHONE!

cause e one im using is kuku. not that im complaining or what, but it's incredibly difficult to enjoy cam-whoring with a VGA camera.

yikes! i've got a moustache above my lips. didnt know im so hairy. i hope this sem got grooming course. cause i hate e moustache.

im tired. been sleeping whenever i can. not good not good.

im waiting...waiting for my breakthru and my confirmation to come. they're on their way!

bananas and watermelons make a good combo!